Wednesday, November 16, 2011

THINKING

Wednesday November 16, 2011 12:33 am

idontknowaboutyoubutformeitseemslikesometimesmy
lifeallrunstogetherthiseveningiwaswatchinanold
televisionseriesonnetflixandwhenisawthetimeperiod
theseriesairedinithoughtmyGodlookathowmuchtimehaspassed
theyearwasnineteenninetythreeandipausedtocalculatemyageand
iwassuddenlyverysadtorealizetherewassomethingsoveryimportant
inmylifethatneededtobedoneatthattimeandididnothingwhy whydididonothingwhatwasitthatstoppedmefromactingonmyhearts
desirewasitjustthingsihadheardorperhapswhatineverheardiknow
ifihadittodooverofcourseiwoulddothingsdifferentlybuthindsight
itsalwayslikethatbecausewehavetheluxuryofknowingwhathas
alreadytranspiredforworkihavetobeupinafewhoursbutitreallydoesnt
matterastonightwillbeoneofthosenightswhenmyheartwillacheand
sleepwillnotcomesoeasilyinolongerplaymuchgolfbuttherewasatimeand
dependingonwhoiwasplayingwiththatsometimeswhenanerrantshotwasmade
theymightaskforamulliganoradooveriwishinreallifetherewassuchathing
asadooveryesadoverforiftherewasiwouldcertainlybegforonethesefewlines
andinthemannertheyaretypedsortofsumsupmylasttwentytwoyearsthatis
allrunningtogetherwithfewpausesorstopsforseriouscontemplationmaybe
ihavelivedliketheserunonsentencesbecausewheneveridopauseto
thinkitsalwaystheverysamethingithinkabout

posted by Robin Johnson @ 12:34 AM