SAYING, "SO LONG..." TO A FRIEND
Wednesday May 8, 8:44 am 2013
I have decided I might be emotionally strong enough to be able to write my final blog, and after many years bring this to an end. I will do this the same way I began... writing about my very dear, and best friend... Virgil.
Before I get very far into this I would also like to thank all of those who through the years have read at least some of the things I have written. From those who have only read a handful of what I have written to those who have been faithful readers, I just want to tell you I appreciate you and have (for the most part) had fun doing this. Also, please make no mistake about this one thing: this is the final blog I will ever post! Nearly 2 years ago now something bad happened in my life and I felt I didn't have the heart to continue so I quit once before. However, not long after that event one of our grandchildren was diagnosed with something serious so I wrote another blog requesting prayer... and I just went on from that point and wrote again.
This time is different though because I now understand that even when things happen in life that would cause me to want to ask others to join with me in praying for a need that there are many other social networking sites out there, and almost any one of them would reach more people than the few I have left who still reads this blog.
This time is different also in that before when I quit my heart was sad and broken, now though with my losing Virgil and coupled with other things in my life I think my heart is not only broken but now growing stony. Perhaps within us is a defense mechanism that God, in His mercy, gives us so that when loss upon loss becomes too great we no longer have to feel at all. I never pretended (nor would any person reading believe otherwise) that I was a great writer, but I did write with a true heart. Now, I feel that is gone and with it any desire to write ever again. (I do this one last time though to honor my friend Virgil and talk about his wonderful life!)
Any person who is even a casual reader of what I have written can probably grasp how important a part of my life he was and maybe even understand how lost I now feel without him. Every single time I ever left the house he was by the door begging to go with me... and every time I came home he was here and waiting for me, it is just not the same anymore.
He was my friend who always wanted to walk with me, or ride in the car, or anything at all... it never mattered to him as long as he could be with me. I now know this is going to be a very poor last posting and not at all the tribute Virgil deserves. However, it is just too hard for me to continue writing and to upload the last pictures I took and the thoughts I wanted to write as I held him in the car and we just looked at each other for the final time. But, maybe it is better this way as that is something that was just between us and no one else need know anyway.
Again, I was also going to explain how that he was the reason I began to write in the first place and these blogs, published books, short stories, poems, etc. all came after a single thought I had while watching him play :)
This blog comes up for renewal next month and I am going to pay for one more year so that any person who either on purpose or by accident comes to this page can see his very cute face. Then, if the world still stands and I am around next year I will not renew and I suppose these pages, pictures, and all of the thoughts contained herein will simply disappear into cyberspace. I have to say I kind of like that thought. (That is to just disappear into a great nothingness.)
Rest in peace my beloved friend, Virgil … March 14, 2001 – April 9, 2013
And if God is truly merciful, then one day we will meet again... please wait for me my dear friend Virgil, I love you!