MOVIE NIGHT
Sunday August 17, 2014 6:56 pm
I had a very soggy ride home from work
today as it was pouring rain most of the day. It was raining this
morning on my way to work and really coming down for the ride home.
However, now I'm showered and feeling better.
We will be leaving in a few hours to
watch a late showing of Guardians of the Galaxy. I'm always torn
whether or not to get the tickets for 3-D (which I did) because at
times the effects are worth it: yet for some movies they are not good
enough to offset the aggravation from having to wear the glasses.
I'm off for the next two days and I
have several things planned for myself to stay busy... but, busy in a
fun way. Yet, I also know that in the end all of us will pay up (one
way or the other) for the things we do :( But, I try to put such
thoughts from my mind... else it hardly seems worth it.
For any and all who might read this
blog I wish you well.
OH, TO BE A KID AGAIN :)
Saturday August 16, 2014 6:09 am
It's early and I found it hard to sleep so I thought I would come into my little office and read or work on some papers? First though I looked in on the girls.
Deb was sound asleep on the couch so I checked in on our two oldest granddaughters... Rachel and Morgan. Both had recent birthdays so Deb had planned a night where they could sleep over together and have pizza and movies and stay up as late as they wanted.
I looked in about fifteen minutes ago and they had covers pulled up to their necks so all I could see was their pretty faces, and both had big grins... WIDE AWAKE and still watching movies! I told them the time and they chimed in, "We know," and laughed and their eyes both turned back to the tv. They seemed excited to have bested a long night without sleep :) I suspect they will (once they do fall asleep) sleep until late in the day.
I guess that's just another sweet perk to being a kid... options. They will be able to sleep in... me, not so much. Once I'm up I will just be up until time to go to work in a few hours.
Speaking of work I'm now on my fifth week of riding my bike to and from work. Even though I ride quite a bit on my off days I do think my legs feel stronger from just adding this daily ride to my routine. It's only nine miles so it's not like it's a marathon distance, but there are several long hills on the route I travel so it's isn't an easy ride either.
Last evening though was the first time I took glasses with me for the ride home. Last night I closed again so it was about midnight when I was riding home and I realized from my last few rides that late at night I don't see all that well when it is really dark outside, so the glasses did help.
Well, I only started writing this morning to say something about the girls so I'm going to end this now. I hope any who reads this has a good day.
BECAUSE SHE WOULD ASK ME ...
Friday
August 15, 2014 9:46 am
I've
been packing my closet all morning and I came across a book of poems
and I stopped to read... now I think I want to give to you an old
favorite of mine I had almost forgotten until only a few moments ago. It's funny, but all thoughts of packing has left my mind and another thought has
again captured my heart and imagination. It's awful how easily I slip into old ways... The poem is by Christopher Brennan,
and it is titled:
Because She
Would Ask Me Why I Loved Her
If questioning
would make us wise
No eyes would ever gaze in eyes;
If all our
tale were told in speech
No mouths would wander each to each.
Were spirits
free from mortal mesh
And love not bound in hearts of flesh
No
aching breasts would yearn to meet
And find their ecstasy
complete.
For who is
there that lives and knows
The secret powers by which he
grows?
Were knowledge all, what were our need
To thrill and
faint and sweetly bleed?.
Then seek not,
sweet, the "If" and "Why"
I love you now until
I die.
For I must love because I live
And life in me is what
you give.
....... A PERMANENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM
August 13, 2014 8:45 am
There was a time in my life when I used this blog to write about different topics from news stories: however, I stopped doing that a few years ago but I thought this morning I would write at least this one blog about something which recently happened.
I think it was Phil Donahue who said, or at least has been credited with coining the phrase: "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." Whether a person likes that phrase or hates it... it is accurate!
Yesterday while at work I found myself in the unenviable position of trying to defend what the comedian Williams did... not because I think it was right, but I tried to at least make some people understand the "why" behind his actions. In reality I actually agree with Shepard Smith's remark about suicide being a "cowardly" act, and I also believe it is a selfish act.
Years ago I had an occasion to recall something I had read before about the basketball player Larry Bird. He was speaking about how his father killing himself had changed him... and it dawned on me that suicide is both a cowardly and selfish act! It is because the person is only thinking about their own pain and they aren't considering that there might be others who still care for them and how their bad act could hurt those innocent people as well. So I guess I believe that a man is supposed to be able to endure pain and ought to consider others before himself, so if that's true then in a sense he just has to "suck it up" and keep going forward :(
I have found in my own life the best way to stay grounded and not harbor weak thoughts is to always look short term and not dwell on any long term future. Because if a person does that then there is a tendency to recall something Stephen King wrote: SSDD. (same s*** different day)
In the "
Odes" Horace wrote the Latin phrase
carpe diem (seize the day). He penned; "Scale back your long hopes to a short period. While we speak, time is envious and is running away from us. Seize the day, trusting little in the future." (This helps me, because if the future seems bleak with no chance of some dreams ever being brought to fruition then it doesn't really matter... because all I have is this one day anyway so surely anyone can get through one more day!)
Virgil wrote: "
collige, virgo, rosas" which is translated, "gather, girl, the roses." In other words, she was to enjoy her youth and life because both pass so very quickly. (Once again the same thought... enjoy just today because tomorrow might never materialize.)
My favorite phrase which also is stating the same thing that Horace and Virgil were saying is Isaiah... who said, "Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die..." This one I understand best... so I do those things that are at least somewhat pleasing for today, and tomorrow? Well, I guess that 'tomorrow' will just have to take care of itself.
It's funny but as I type this I'm remembering a song from my misspent teenaged years. Maybe I'm now thinking Stephen Stills was a sage when he wrote, Love the One You're with. He sings, "If you can't be with the one you love, Honey, love the one you're with." Yep,
carpe diem... seize the damn day!
WISHING A LIFE AWAY :(
Monday August 11, 2014 8:10 am
I started to ask if anyone has ever done "something" that was silly, or childish? However, that wouldn't even require serious thought because all of us has done something (singular) that is silly or childish. For me though it seems to be continual and it isn't just one "thing" it is continual and many "things!"
Last night found me (once again) staring up at a Super Moon and making silly and childish wishes like that event in nature really does have some power to make wishes come true? Such stupidity I sometimes display even amazes me... yet, I seem to be powerless to stop myself from doing such things.
I try and rationalize and sort of step back and look at myself as someone else might and I try to figure out why that person would be doing that even when they know better... and even if I have an answer for them (me) it still doesn't seem to help me to stop doing those things. I think it is just that to completely stop such activity is to give up all hope and that is so very hard for me to do. Even against all odds or reason I think maybe it is just that "hope" and "wishes" is all I've got, so it helps to sustain me and gives me a reason to go on with my daily grind.
Also I think in part I know there is an important date for me coming up soon so it's hard for me to not think about it... especially when it keeps popping into my head. I couldn't imagine being at work during that time so I took a week's vacation built around that date and I imagine I will find some woods and tramp around in them during that time... as being alone and hiking always seem to help me get through hard or sad times.
So, hope, wishes, an anniversary date of sorts... and everything else still does not negate the absurdity of certain things I do! Even writing this in an attempt to publicly chastise or scold myself for being so very stupid will most assuredly not work. Because in the back of my mind I have already stored away a certain fact... September 9 will be another Super Moon which will more than likely see me standing somewhere alone and looking up at a glorious nighttime sky and wishing my silly life away... still believing that wishes sometimes really do come true :(
SMULE
Sunday August 3, 2014 8:24 pm
I found a fun App someone told me about at work the other day and a few minutes ago I used it to record some of Steph's kids playing with a Wii game... I recorded it without their knowledge. I had intended to add it to my blog for anyone to listen but for some reason my computer is misbehaving tonight and I can't get it uploaded.
The App is called AutoRap by Smule and it's both free and fun. Although most "rap" music, at least to me is more like they forgot the "c" at the start of the word: however, this is actually fun to play around with.
Truly I began writing tonight for a reason and then after starting I changed my mind... but because I had already begun I thought I would write something anyway. I hope any and all who might read this has a good night.
