2013
Tuesday January 1, 2013 12:52 am"HAPPY NEW YEAR" everyone! As of 12:01I have now successfully completed my first full day being vegan. (lol) Actually I have attempted this a few times in the last 18 years and each time I have failed. The longest I have ever done this was six weeks (exactly 42 days) and I broke it while on vacation in Gatlinburg. Guess what the first thing was that I ate to break it: Reece peanut butter cup: old habits die hard (:
Part of my first day of my 90 day goal has already been broken... and that was not to miss a decent workout in any given 24 hour period. I left church this evening about ten and drove to the gym and they were closed! The nerve of those people, closing on New Year's Eve... they probably closed on Christmas too! Slackers! lol
Really I'm not upset, and it probably would have been crazy to open a gym on this date: nonetheless, I was told they NEVER close. I really did hate to miss my first workout after starting this new food lifestyle... but I will try and make up for it tomorrow after work. (Then, I am off the next two days and I will try and hit it really hard then.)
I have several goals this year and I don't know how many, if any, I will really accomplish? I do know though that time is running out for me to be able to do them. Of course, in a real sense time is running out for all of us... I just seem to notice it more I guess, and especially at night when I sometimes get this crushing longing that makes it hard to breathe: other than that though, everything is just hunky dory (:
I listened to a sad song tonight. Truth-be-told I could only find excerpts of it... for now though I guess it is enough for me. I was able to find the complete words to the song and I read them through several times, and they are sad as well. Life, at times, can be tough... but it's still good.
Everyone has dreams, and I wish for everyone who reads this that all of your dreams come true in 2013! But I also have dreams and I too wish that my dreams would come true this year as well. However, I have a great problem with certain dreams I have dreamt. For you see, my dream(s) is the same impossible one sang about in Man of La Mancha. I have often said in my life that I have been as the foolish Don Quixote constantly tilting at windmills. But, just because I know that my dream is an impossible one: does that mean that I should not still want it or dream about it? Of course not, at least not for me.
Of course, Quixote's dreams were more pure and less selfish than my own... that still doesn't mean I don't want 'em. (lol) If the song is accurate (in the end) and as long as I remain true to my dream and even though I fail, there might still be some consolation? One day I suppose I will know?
In a little while I will lay down to sleep and when I awake I will still dream about that which I can never have. Perhaps there will be people who reads this and finds that they are in the same position I am... wanting what will never be. If that is true for you, the next time you imbibe then please lift a glass and think of me and I will do the same for you (:
Goodnight all... and happy 2013 to everyone!!!!!!!
posted by Robin Johnson @ 12:52 AM
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