SAYING, "SO LONG..." TO A FRIEND
Wednesday May 8, 8:44 am 2013
I have decided I might be emotionally
strong enough to be able to write my final blog, and after many years
bring this to an end. I will do this the same way I began... writing
about my very dear, and best friend... Virgil.
Before I get very far into this I would
also like to thank all of those who through the years have read at
least some of the things I have written. From those who have only
read a handful of what I have written to those who have been faithful
readers, I just want to tell you I appreciate you and have (for the
most part) had fun doing this. Also, please make no mistake about
this one thing: this is the final blog I will ever post! Nearly 2
years ago now something bad happened in my life and I felt I didn't
have the heart to continue so I quit once before. However, not long
after that event one of our grandchildren was diagnosed with
something serious so I wrote another blog requesting prayer... and I
just went on from that point and wrote again.
This time is different though because I
now understand that even when things happen in life that would cause
me to want to ask others to join with me in praying for a need that
there are many other social networking sites out there, and almost
any one of them would reach more people than the few I have left who
still reads this blog.
This time is different also in that
before when I quit my heart was sad and broken, now though with my
losing Virgil and coupled with other things in my life I think my
heart is not only broken but now growing stony. Perhaps within us is
a defense mechanism that God, in His mercy, gives us so that when
loss upon loss becomes too great we no longer have to feel at all. I
never pretended (nor would any person reading believe otherwise) that
I was a great writer, but I did write with a true heart. Now, I feel that is
gone and with it any desire to write ever again. (I do this one last
time though to honor my friend Virgil and talk about his wonderful
life!)
Any person who is even a casual reader
of what I have written can probably grasp how important a part of my
life he was and maybe even understand how lost I now feel without
him. Every single time I ever left the house he was by the door
begging to go with me... and every time I came home he was here and
waiting for me, it is just not the same anymore.
He was my friend who always wanted to
walk with me, or ride in the car, or anything at all... it never
mattered to him as long as he could be with me. I now know this is
going to be a very poor last posting and not at all the tribute
Virgil deserves. However, it is just too hard for me to continue
writing and to upload the last pictures I took and the thoughts I
wanted to write as I held him in the car and we just looked at each
other for the final time. But, maybe it is better this way as that is
something that was just between us and no one else need know anyway.
Again, I was also going to explain how
that he was the reason I began to write in the first place and these
blogs, published books, short stories, poems, etc. all came after a
single thought I had while watching him play :)
This blog comes up for renewal next
month and I am going to pay for one more year so that any person who
either on purpose or by accident comes to this page can see his very
cute face. Then, if the world still stands and I am around next year
I will not renew and I suppose these pages, pictures, and all of the
thoughts contained herein will simply disappear into cyberspace. I
have to say I kind of like that thought. (That is to just disappear
into a great nothingness.)
Rest in peace my beloved friend, Virgil
… March 14, 2001 – April 9, 2013
And if God is truly merciful, then one
day we will meet again... please wait for me my dear friend Virgil, I
love you!
posted by Robin Johnson @ 8:44 AM
